Graysen Pictures!

My "baby" is turning 2 tomorrow so here are some pictures from over the last month or so. He is getting so big and starting to talk a ton. He is totally into the toddler stage (which is adorable and hard) and not so much my baby anymore. He is going to look like such a big kid when baby #4 joins our family. :)

Being my patient boy eating his snack at my 36 & 5 day appointment.

Playing with an I-Phone case acting like it's his phone.

Alivia and Graysen posing so sweetly for me!

Alivia asked Graysen for a hug and I was able to capture this sweet, sweet moment!

After eating lunch and before nap time smiles.

Pretending to drink his "tea"!

Smoothie smile...

Playing with the laundry basket during his first movie night with the big kids.

Loving the snow!

Bath time and a mischievous look after I told him not to drink the bath water and he did it anyway!

After bath selfie.

Hanging out with big brother Nolan.

Reading with daddy before bedtime.

Being a silly kiddo playing with big brother and sister.

Washing daddy's car on a nice winter day.

Swinging with Alivia at this cool park that we love.

He loves being outside and loves swinging at the park.

This kid LOVES his grammy (He is wearing a play nurse scrub that was my brothers)!

Cheesing it up with big brother and sister!

Playing with Alivia.

Snack time in a weird spot. :)

Squishy dough play.

More hugs for alivia!

Another cute selfie!

Just being silly.

Couch snuggles with siblings.

One of his favorite spots: eating food.

My Current Thoughts- Baby Spiers #4 Breech Status!!

More then 7 years ago, I was pregnant with Alivia. I was naive in believing that my birth plan would go perfectly. Instead it went the exact opposite of what Ben and I were hoping for. We had written a birth plan for an un-medicated, natural birth and instead my birth story with Alivia involves a c-section. (Alivia's Birth Story). Fast forward to the births of my boys where I was able to have a vbac with epidural with Nolan (Nolan's Birth Story and  Nolan's Birth Story Part 2) and natural vbac with Graysen (Graysen's Birth Story- Doula Perspective and Graysen's Birth Story- My Emotions) and I was elated. I have been able to work through my feeling around Alivia's birth. I needed to have all the labor and births I have had to get where I am today. Baby Spiers #4 is breech and I am sitting at 2 days shy of 37 weeks. My emotions have been pretty stable for the most part since finding out the breech status at 30 weeks. I have been praying mostly that I am content in HOWEVER I deliver this baby. Praying for peace of mind knowing that a c-section is a very high possibility at this point. In the last few months, I have been thrown into a few different situations that have tested my trust in the Lord and have allowed me the opportunity to let go of the control I want to cling onto. Ultimately, I have no control over if this baby is going to flip or not but it feels nice to think that I do. Letting go of thinking I have control and giving that part to God has been freeing and allowed me not to stress about how this baby is going to be delivered. I would love to have this baby naturally, that is my heart's desire, but in the end if I have a c-section I know that I will be ok. I know I will handle it better than how I handled my emotions with Alivia because I have changed my expectations not to what I want but to trusting in God's plan for me.

With saying that, Ben and I have decided to try a version next week to see if manually turning the baby will be just what the baby needs to flip to head down. If the version doesn't work at 38 weeks, I have the opportunity to try again at 39 weeks with an epidural. If it works my provider will induce me and if it doesn't work, I will head to the operating room for a c-section. I am comfortable with this plan. I feel that if the version(s) doesn't work that there is a reason for the baby being breech and the Lord is protecting our baby knowing that a c-section is the best route.

Here is how I am preparing for birth:

  • Trusting in God's plan for me and Baby Spiers #4 
  • Reading Bible Verses about strength, trust, peace, plans
  • Brousing websites such as Birth Without Fear and Cord Mama and reading birth stories
  • Reading Articles such as 3 Truths about C-Section Mamas and Dear C-Section Mamas
  • Allowing my support team to offer their encouragement
  • Listening to midwifes knowledge and confidence in my situation

32 Weeks with a freshly bathed and sweet Graysen

35 Weeks

36 Weeks (decided the bathroom needed a cleaning after this picture :))